This is a very hard post for me to write. I’ve been absent for a while now because of some problems I’ve been having with Axel. He is a very loving corgi, but it is no doubt that he has pretty serious anxiety, and it has made him act aggressively toward my family, and at very rare times, my friends. He’s always been a very anxious puppy, even from day 1, He was afraid of drawers, the ceiling fan, fart noises (even from himself, and let me tell you, he is a gassy puppy) cars/busy streets (Which made walks around the neighborhood nearly impossible). but it started getting pretty serious around May when 1. my brother and I were finished with school and started spending more time at home with him (according to the doctor, dogs need a bit of alone time and about 16 hours of sleep a day) and 2. when they started fixing stuff around the house because of water damage from our hard winter here and Michigan. All this pushed him over the edge and he started hiding, growling and snarling whenever someone did something that scared him, and even snapping on occasion.
We have done everything that we can think of to try and help him, we got calming collars, mental stimulation toys to try and refocus his mind of more calming things, we hired a personal dog trainer who specializes in aggressive behavior and dogs that people believe are too far gone to train (we didn’t believe that about Axel, but that’s their specialty. All that training did was make him worse and stress him out more, because they didn’t do about it the way that he needed them to. but that’s ok, they didn’t know, he was a different case) and we even took him to a vet to get a prescription for Anxiety medication. All this was very straining both financially and emotionally.
If it were up to me, I would keep trying, I would pay whatever and do whatever to help him be happy here. He was always fine with me, he rarely ever showed any aggression toward me. The main problem was that he was trying to defend me a lot of the time from things that he thought would hurt us both. (i.e. my parents, drawers, fans, etc.) If I were living on my own and I had the say I wouldn’t dream of ever giving him up.
But it’s no my decision, it is straining my parents on all sides, and I can’t do anything to help it (financially since I am currently an unemployed college student, and emotionally, because he can’t seem to stop protecting me.) so a decision had to be made about him.
A year ago, before I got Axel, when I was looking for dogs, after being turned down by several rescue organizations and decided to look for breeders instead, my mother found a farm in the town where I was born. The woman who owns the farm rescues and breeds working dogs, her specialty being corgis. My grandmother (Who used to own a horse farm near this farm) contacted this woman and told her about Axel. She was very enthusiastic about the idea of training him, she’s seen corgis that have acted the way he has, and believes training him on a farm and letting him use his herding instincts will really help him be happy and calm again. It’s not official yet, and at the moment I’m writing this, we don’t know when it’ll happen. Possibly this weekend. I’m scheduling this to post this weekend, so he may even be there already. And I promise you this is actually a farm and not a euphemism for putting him down like what’s classically told. There is a real farm, and it is a very nice place.
This is all very hard for me, it’s heartbreaking really. I love Axel with all my heart, and I’ve been sobbing for about a week while these decisions were being made. I don’t know if I’ll ever get over it, he’s my baby, and it’s likely I’ll never been able to see him again. I love him so much, but I’m not the only one that I can think about in this situation. My family needs peace, and so does he. I really hope he’ll be happy there, and I’m sure he will be….I just wish he could be happy here with me.
So I just wanted to let all of Axel’s faithful followers know what is going on, and thank you all for joining on this brief journey. Just to clarify, Axel was very loved here, he was never abused, nor neglected, everything that happened had to do with his nature, he wasn’t getting enough calming chemicals in his brain, it’s a natural thing that happens to people, and even animals. We’re hoping that pursuing his natural instincts will help him.
We love you all. Goodbye for now.